there is so much beauty in suffering

or more so.. truly beautiful things only exist amidst suffering.

.. truly beautiful things are only as beautiful as the depth they dwell in dualities … and they contain equal parts pain and joy. like giving someone flowers despite the fact that they will die in a few days, you cherish them deeper. or how sunsets only last for a couple of minutes.. you watch it closer. whenever i feel like the Universe or God has sent some kind of divine intervention, such a clear obstacle, a task, .. something sent to grow me… something sent for me to ‘suffer’ through.

i think that is the Higher Power’s way of showing you the depth of the beauty in this universe. truly. how can you cherish something, anything at the deepest level, without fundamentally understanding how fleeting it is.. without experiencing the equal parts in pain as you will to the subsequent pleasure? Duality. the differentiation in experience. the universe divided. these things (in my opinion) are purposeful. so that we could experience ourselves at the deepest level. marvel at our beauty as the universe conscious. What is good without the bad? what is joy without the pain? when you start the see the beauty in the way all of these dualities exist together in every single aspect of reality to create something beautiful.. to create life itself… you will stop running from pain and start realizing it is an intrinsic part of anything good.

additionally, i think.. the experience of knowing you are in a period of suffering. or that you are truly facing what is difficult. i feel like that’s the recipe for creating beautiful things. when you cry, .. i think.. cry tears of joy about how beautiful the duality of your suffering is.. because it points to an equal amount of joy for you to experience. the depth of beauty God created for us to experience in this life is only accessible through the acceptance of duality. any amount of pain for an equal amount of pleasure. & vice verse.

we cherish things deeply when they are fleeting. we cherish things deeply when we have fought for them equally as deeply. duality is not a curse. it was created for us to experience the beauty of this life at the deepest level possible. this is believe.

and I think.. for myself. I seek to experience the beauty of life at the deepest level. and that means maintaining a level of acceptance that the depth of joy I wish to experience comes with the duality of ‘suffering’ (in a sense).

— edit to this

but something I had also been thinking about.. was our decision or compliance to admit to some kind of suffering in an experience. physical suffering is an inevitability when you seek to change something physical. but mentally you can choose not to suffer. I think something i had been pondering on was .. if you decide to make something (an experience for example) into a nonbinary experience, you may be removing suffering .. but you are also in the same sense removing the depth of joy you would have had as it was linked to that suffering. I think the choice to mentally create anything to be a binary or nonbinary experience really is up to us (again not physically suffering but mental suffering being the option) but you need to be aware that choosing to perceive something nonbinarily of course means depriving the depth of both joy and pain. this doesn’t really mean anything lowkey if you don’t care to think about the way you perceive life (binary or not), it’s just a mental map i have made. I’ve had understandings like this before but since learning is cyclical I just had this realization again at a deeper level recently.