it’s crazy how music just transports me

i can see and feel very distinct moments in time

it’s really beautiful

guys this isn’t new info but please go do all the little things u want rn:) when I spend my little day alone moseying around outside, making myself a little meal, collaging, reading at the beach, tidying my room !!! and adding to my blog!!! ah!!! man life is full! fill it with things u love! it’s like a authenticity and fulfillment refuel process for us.. doing the little things i love all over the board makes me feel so me!!! and we genuinely just feel the best when we feel in touch with us

today my legs still worked and i could still breath and see and eat good food and i have a safe home and loving family and so many things to be grateful for and even though life situations might be ass sometimes i’m still alive and being and learning and there is so much going right all the time :)))) 🤲🏻🤲🏻🤲🏻🤍🤍

and even when things feel not the best that still doesn’t mean it’s bad. and i will absolutely without a doubt find and see and experience everything im looking for in this life. I am patient. I know everything I am seeking is seeking me just as much. and I wont let experiences that hurt me or humbled me or hallowed me to make me bitter. or closed.

discernment. thank you every experience and person and moment for giving me more. more discernment, more awareness.. about who I am as a person, what I am looking for, what I stand for. what I really want. and that I’ll never let any number of shitty experiences make me cruel. or bitter. or mean. every time I experience something new I gain so much wisdom. and it is shitty sometimes. cause when you step outside your comfort zone and experience something new yes you inevitably run into an uncomfortable kind of situation you have never been in and need to sort out. it’s ok though. it can feel so icky and anxious but in hindsight there is a beauty in encountering these kinds of situations… because at least it’s something new. at least you know more about life and yourself and other people and yk what it’s okay because that’s wisdom gained regardless of how things turned out. you’re still here you’re still moving and growing. and the good that’s coming is better then this. it is.

and I will continue to walk with the open heart I have. more discerningly .. but open nonetheless. and I will never stop learning!!! evolving!!! being!!!!! I wish you the best. all of you. I do. I hope you are all happy. I hope all of you find your peace. I hope everything works out for you exactly how you want 🙂

i also want to say how adorable people are. we all want to be seen and appreciated and understood and loved! at that deep level! and so much of the silliness of meeting new people and building new connections is that all of these surface level things and anxieties or past traumas create all of these layers that seem to keep all of us from connecting with each other easily. and i think the beauty in meeting new people and growing in friendships or other relationships is with those deep conversations or how the passage of time lets you peel back the layers on who people are, how they tick.. and you just get to see who someone really is. it’s lovely! and wholesome. to see people as they are and appreciate them like that. i love you people! and i forgive you.