maturing is … observing your fears but listening to your intuition, then trusting it, making a decision, and then releasing any doubt.

the past is gone. all I can do is act, think, and live logically in accordance with my values in the now … and listen to the quiet pull of my intuition (&not the loud grip of my fear or anxiety)

i think for me intuition in mind and spirit feels like a quiet return to something familiar even though you haven’t physically encountered it before .. it almost feels like sensing an essence of your truth but in the world you haven’t experienced yet.

i trust my intuition. i trust my instincts. i trust myself. my task for myself is feeling my intuition and trusting it … but to draw awareness to when my ‘intuition’ is actually fear. I think a discerning difference is .. fear is loud and frantic and sits deep in your stomach. but intuition is a quiet awareness that feels like this calm knowing without words .. a knowing about what your truth really believes. about what feels like you.

I think my intuition in many many ways has kept me on my path and my authentic evolution and return to Self .. but with physically stepping outside my comfort zone I have also encountered my subconscious dual response of fear. I think we are asked to encounter new challenges on a journey to the Self because they test our ‘fear vs intuition’ discernment.

and typically our initial response to challenges outside of our comfort zone is one of subconscious and human fear (i think because we are human we have this biological response to new challenges or new ‘threats’), but I think I’m learning that that’s okay.. it’s a lot to ask of yourself to never be afraid or let any subconscious trauma affect your decisions outside of your comfort zone (in the first time you encounter them that is) but that’s why evolution invokes learning. that’s what allows us to act in intuition more easily.. it’s after we observe and learn how our rooted fear has affected our decision making in a way that is inauthentic.

I think at the heart of this, it’s that a human evolution in spirit means we will always be uncovering how our subconscious and rooted fear, anxiety, and trauma is keeping us from doing and living in intuition.. in our true flow, and in service to our highest truest selves.

and also that I think that’s what an infinite evolution of self is … spirituality and otherwise, its about staying in tune with spiritual intuition in a world and existence where you are human, and you have human emotion.

maturing is … realizing that you don’t need to be 100% sure or inherently passionate about something to do it or to try it out.

people seem to think that passion comes first, or absolute devotion to something comes first— like you were either “built with it/for it” or you weren’t. but in my (limited) experience.. even a little curiosity and then some faith to do/try something messily and shakily comes first .. thennn as you keep it up, learning and trying at it (giving it an honest to goodness fair shot) you slowly gain wisdom and get better.. then honestly before you know it the momentum of growth becomes easier and easier and you seem to find yourself becoming more and more devoted to learning and growing in something. it’s pretty cool! like passion is actually (in many cases) actually a side affect of a little bit of perpetual curiosity & bravery to step into the unknown, and something you find develops within you as you become more involved in something.. not the other way around.

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maturing is … realizing (most) negative receptions from others are a reflection of their inner world. not you.

maturing is … continuously broadening your mind body and soul through exploring a diverse array of expressive outlets and interests (so ur brain doesn’t get stale girl) new genres of reading, art, physical pursuits, spirituality.. all of it. we were not meant to take wisdom from only one place!!!!!

maturing is … realizing that understanding the rules of nature are inherent to living in flow.. i mean this in the sense of.. whatever nature has ordained to be the natural cause and effect of something is right and is teaching you how to live in flow. like that growth happens over time, we have different seasons, we grow through difficulty.. I really believe that all of nature just mirrors the journey to ourselves and teaches us how to live in flow.

maturing is … not resigning to any fixed minded notion of anything (spirituality, knowledge, understanding) .. maturing is being a forever student.

maturing is … giving things a real real go. like actually stepping outside your comfort zone and actually experiencing something in uncharted territories (being able to let go of what you already know and have experienced in favor of new things)

maturing is … realizing that to actually be your self, explore what you want to explore.. you HAVE to let go of the idea of what people close to you have of you. often times the process of continuously becoming ourselves and continuously growing in our authenticity feels most resistant because of what people who are already close to us think, like our family or current friends. when you are being yourself .. you actually seem to resonate most with complete strangers that you meet on your journey.